Thinking often about suicide is, no matter how strange it sounds, a form of sanity given the depressing world we live into. The dissappointing part is how can someone accept an anonymous death when you can use it to inflict maximum damage against the traditional enemy and its pawns.
In Hagakure, the great samurai book (required reading when Japan was still free), one hears one of the most memorable lines ever written: the purpose of life is death. You can judge a quality of a man not so much by the way it lives, but by the way it dies! The Aryans and their spiritual Japanese brothers realized what is the essence of honor: not just living in virtue, but dying in glory as well.
Under no circumstance would I kill myself because "my woman" would be cheating on me. It is just that I have NO GOOD expectations of them, thus infidelity (real or potential) and every other evil is something I EXPECT along with a relationship.
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